Assignments..

It's time to rush for assignments again..it's already week 6...and now i only start to do it... date of submission is on week 8...-.-...nice.... although i have only 2 assignments for this semester... but.. don't know why..still love to do last minute work..good luck to me....

Ulcer

Don't know what to say...I'm killing by ulcer these days...probably the next few days too.. excessive biscuits? or insufficient of water?? Haih..no idea.... hope it disappears soon...

The New Housemate

Yesterday Pei Juan brought back a new housemate...she is so cute..and brings a lot of fun for us... I want to say...welcome to our house..and we are going to love u so so much...muacks... babe hamster...

Mask

I feel like I am wearing a mask these days...
When people laugh, I laugh...
But in the end... all I feel is empty..
I don't know what was I laughing for...

I've attended marketing lecture today...
Mr. Garry was funny throughout all the lecture...
However...
The more I laugh.. the more I feel disgusting to myself...
So... I chose to study my IS slides instead of laughing...

I don't know what has happened...
My emotion just getting bad and bad these days...
Trying to find the solution... But I couldn't...
I used to be a happy girl... but now.. not anymore...

I don't show people that I'm not happy..
Because I feel sad when I saw the one I care sad...
So I always trying to be happy.. so that they are happy too
Instead of showing my real feelings..
I choose to wear a mask...
I choose to be everyone's happy chocolate... on the surface...

Shh....

Don't say anything because you know nothing about it...
Don't say anything because I have feelings too...
Just be quiet and don't mention anything about it ever...

Forces & Direction

I'm kinda losing forces and direction recently...staring at the lappie..I don't know what to do apart from facebook... staring at the notes..my eyes are watching it but my heart is somewhere else... Trying to start my assignment..but I can't concentrate to write even a single word.. I'm like a soulless person... Someone..please give me a push..so that I can be 'alive' again... @.@

Haih....

射手座(Sagittarius)

乐观与忧愁：射手座人的内心不是外表看上去那么乐观的，因为喜欢看的远，容易担忧的事情也就多，在他们的字典里，即使现在好，也不一定 代表未来好，有时候很多人觉得很好的一个工作或一个伴侣，他们很轻易的就会放弃掉，可能只是因为一个毫不起眼的小原因。所以，这样的外在表现，就让人们觉 得他们不喜欢被某件事情或某个人束缚住，追求自由的，没有压力的感觉。 现实：常说射手座是追求梦想的人，但往往忽略了他们现实的一面，算计起来不会比处女座差哦，只是更高明更隐藏罢了。射手座人的梦想是必须建立在现实的基础 上的，一般他们很少谈及自己的梦想，而是实际的去做一些向梦想靠拢的事情。如果可以借巧力完成的事情，决不会多花一点工夫。所以有时候射手座也容易给人耍 小聪明的感觉。可是，不得不承认他们完成的还满不错。也许终其一生，他们都在考虑怎么巧妙的做一些事情，花最少的精力去达到最好的效果。所以，很多射手座 看上去让人们会觉得很懒，但是其实他们的大脑可没有停下过思考现实的事情。 拒绝低俗：几乎所有的射手座内心都是骄傲的，其程度绝不亚于狮子座。只不过他们不会显现在脸上，外在的表现总是随和的，恰当的。可是内在有着极强的自尊 心，敏感也情绪化。因为射手座人心中是骄傲的，所以他们拒绝低俗，不喜欢任何俗气的、粗鲁的事或人。如果可以，他们希望一切有关的事物，都是优雅的、高尚 的，值得品味的。而真正能让他们觉得值得交朋友或谈恋爱的人是很少的，虽然表面上他们是很随和的。 多情：很多人说射手座多情，尤其是男性。其实在射手座人的心目中，对于爱情确实有理想化的倾向，和他们谈恋爱，是一件高难度的事情。他们非常讨厌俗气的 人，所以你不能很物质或喜欢谈钱，但是他们又很现实，所以你不能一文不名，各方面也必须有一定的实力。物质与精神，你必须平衡的刚刚好，才让他们觉得你值 得去爱。或者，你有足够的神秘感，可以让他们不知道你的缺点在哪里，而盲目的爱你。一般，当然是没有完美无缺的人的，所以，可能象金牛座这样永远会让射手 感觉捉摸不透的闷闷的人，会非常吸引他们；或者象双子那样，足够机智，懂得察言观色，捕捉他们的情绪，才会让他们感觉到爱情的甜蜜。一般射手的感情模式 是，第一阶段，你们还不熟悉，他（她）爱上了你，非常热情。第二阶段，你们逐渐熟悉，而他（她）开始龟毛，整天挑剔你的毛病，无论是背地里还是当面。如果 你有幸通过他（她）的挑剔过程，基本挑剔出的毛病为零或者你把缺点保密的非常好；那么进入第三阶段，他们就又是忠诚和热情的爱人了。但是基本能通过第二阶 段的人非常少，所以有了射手多情一说。其实射手对恋人的挑剔，是源于对爱情的挑剔，对丧失自由感的恐惧。 射手座人的人生，往往是幸运的，因为他们是聪慧的、明朗的、通透的。与众不同，也许是他们终生追求的梦想，希望每一个射手人，可以找到他们的梦想！ 　　人人都说射手座是感情的骗子，对爱情不尊重，只追求片刻的快感，是花心与冲满欲望的象征。朋友们…你们了解射手座最真实的一面吗？ 射手座是大孩子，天真与善良，遇到爱情时，可能让人感觉不认真，付出的比谁都少。可是，知道吗？射手座很想爱，却也很怕爱！刚开始他们只是慢慢的付出，谨 慎的爱，好怕自己会受伤。可是在一句一句的爱，一天一天的相处下，射手座把带刺的防备丢掉，开始不顾一切的去爱他们所爱的人，在别人眼中，只是射手座为了 达到某种目的而作的行动。可射手座不介意，他会在自己幸福的想象中陶醉，希望对方能感受自己的爱，想对方觉得与自己一齐是幸福的。 在射手座爱上了一个人，他会把自己放到最后。有苦自己承担，可能会因为吵了一场小架而不开心，却也是最快认错，无论谁的错，他们都会包容，知道吗？射手座 会因为深爱一个人而原谅他的背叛，会因为你的一句话付出很多。他们爱玩，在玩的同时，也希望把那一份好心情带给你，射手座是乐观的。 　 人们总觉得射手座的世界很快乐，可是呢？射手座难过时没有人知道，他不想让别人可怜自己，射手座不坚强，可是很善良。在你难过时哄你开心，让你有依靠，分 手后，他会哭者去想属于你们俩幸福的回忆，也不想爱的人因为同情而勉强和他一齐。他比谁都希望自己爱的人快乐幸福，却常常忽略了自己，全身都是伤也笑着告 诉你，我很好不用担心。 　　在所有人看到他的笑容以为他没事，却不知道失恋对射手座有多大伤害，华丽的外表下有一颗脆弱的需要别人了解和安慰的心。知道嘛？你的一点关心，心思细 腻的射手座会记得你对他的好，把自己的爱毫无保留的送给你，射手座是不被了解的，可他们不会怨谁。他们会傻傻的认为，让我承担吧，别让别人也受到伤害。所 以，不要让快乐的射手座痛苦，别让他们最有魅力的笑容成为掩饰痛苦的伪装，认真爱射手座。你会知道射手座的爱，是充满泪水的…

Just Be Numb

I'm trying to see nothing...
I'm trying to hear nothing...
I'm trying to feel nothing...
I'm trying to trust nothing...
I'm trying to say nothing...
Because I'm trying to be just NUMB...

Damn TNB

I am freaking tired now...but I cant sleep because my home has no electric current now..... Damn it.... What the fuck is that fucking TNB doing??!! God damn it...

Fed Up...

There's something that is not suppose to say..so..don't say it...because I don't like it....

Washing clothes is not an easy job...

Haiz...I've washed many clothes today...5 t-shirts and 1 short pants...it's consider quite a lot for me... T.T....this was the 1st time I washed SO MANY clothes...usually I will DELIVER my clothes to my home since my hometown is so near from here...and I've done this for the past 1 year... but these 2 weeks...due to I;m not going back to hometown and mama papa are so busy travel until they have to delay the date to visit me...so i have to wash my own clothes to make sure that I have sufficient clothes for next 2 weeks....T.T..... Now I feel like my hands are completely look like an old women hands...T.T...... It's the toughest house chores I've ever done...T.T.....

The Cutest Pa Ever...

Dad fetched me back to kampar this afternoon...and...some 'accident' happen when I was keeping my stuffs...he suddenly rushed into my room and asked for a spanner...He said he left the car keys in the car and the car is somehow..locked....but the next thing he told me is not how was he gonna stop it...he just said 'shh...dun call your mum(mum is at ti)..then i saw him busying trying to open all the window..although it was locked..obviously..I guessed he was just desperate... then he called some foreman to open the door...well..I saw the foreman was using a fork to try to open it... yes... it's a fork that we use to eat our noodles and all that...mission failed...there was no way to open that door unless he calls mum...and yea...he did call mum..and I can hear mum scolding him in the phone..then a friend fetched mum to my hostel (from my hometown) and gave dad the spare keys.. Well...at the moment when we were waiting mum...my dad was lying on my bed and there is no way you can imagine how funny, desperate was his look..haha

Tired..

It's only the 1st week of degree....and I'm already tired.....I'm so tired...