Merry Xmas :)

Xmas 2011
Spent my Xmas eve with my buddies.
Had a great time with them.
:)
Wishing for  a better time after this xmas.

12星座不为人知的秘密：射手座

12星座不为人知的秘密：射手座

请别相信射手座对感情很乐观


射手座女生对于分手,给人的感觉好象是短痛后就会满不在乎。多数人认为，这是射手座对感情的乐观！如果，你也是这样想的话，那你就错了。在感情上，射手座其实并不乐观，特别是她面对自己的真正喜欢或爱的人，往往不知道该如何去做？去做些什么？怎么样才能做好？她很希望自己的爱情可以天长地久，但是，在这过程中，她并不知道该如何取悦对方才能让爱永恒，她就只知道，只好一直地去付出。

但是，这样做适得其返，因为太过在乎对方的“得到”后的感觉，往往会让对方有些“腻”的感觉，于是很多射手的人，都不会得到自己真正喜欢的人的爱。另一方面，射手对感情上，往往表现出患得患失，于是有时会表现得很沉默的样子，这会让对方感觉被射手讨厌，虽然这并不是射手想要的结果，但此时的射手也不知道怎么去讨意中人的欢喜，除非对方可以让射手足够安全感，射手才会表现出自己最真实温柔的一面。

对那些在感情上背叛自己的人，射手是会毫不留情的，所以，如果失恋，射手绝对不会再回头，之所以，射手在失恋后会比其他星座“乐观”一些，那是因为她真正地付出以后，放弃才不会觉得后悔，她觉得真正会后悔的，是不懂珍惜她的感情的人。

请别相信射手座爱自由

很多星座书都这样描述：射手座爱自由，追求无拘无束的感觉。事实上，射手追求的自由完全是为了让自己爱的人自由，因为她都知道，被束缚的爱情对每个人都是包袱，而在"自由"环境下的爱情，在射手看来就是完全心甘情愿付出不受任何强迫的感情，才是最牢固和可靠的，

请别相信射手座很热情

相信，你曾经感受过射手的热情，但是，如果是在对待自己意中人时，就会由开始的热情慢慢变为沉默。你也许会奇怪：射手座不是很少会闷着不说话的吗？其实，她也有深沉的一面，在面对自己的意中人时，射手会很害怕对方看出自己的深情而失去那份感情——害怕对方失去激情而最后导致分手，于是沉默也就成了她掩饰自己深情的方法。

请别相信射手座花心

在一般人心目中，射手座一向是“花心”出了名的。其实，与其说她花心，倒不如说她“痴心”——“专一”的另一代名词。事实上，射手座并不是没有痴心的可能，只是平常，你看不出来罢了；因为她给人感觉，总是一副蛮不在乎的样子，很难想象她也会对感情有所坚持。

射手座其实会做得出别的星座做不出的痴心事：如正在追求某个对象，或是已经交往的感情对象想要变心了的话，许多时候大家会选择放弃，只有射手还是满心期待地痴心付出等待下去，只他们因为深深相信着，努力付出，痴心守候总有一天会等到想要的结果。另一个角度，这个痴心的状况大多发生在追求或想挽回的情况，一旦确定结果是得不到，射手座的痴心也就不再了，人们所说的“花心”也就出现了。

29112011

29112011

Here comes my 20th birthday.

Saying goodbye to teenage.

Saying hello to young adult.

I'll be stronger, tougher and happier.

Moral Campaign

Finally, the moral campaign is over.
We've been working very hard for it and this is super tiring.
But, we did have a lot of fun during the preparation and rehearsal.
Thanks every of my groupmates for the contribution.
And for my new friends, nice to meet you all.
Thanks for all the joy you guys have brought to me throughout the past week.
=D

Gambateh!

Its week 5! 
Time pass really fast.
Will be super hectic for the coming 3 weeks.
Presentations, Assignments & Midterms.
There's nothing can be done but GAMBATEH!

Empty

Somehow, "Sad" is gone.

But I'm not cheerful either.

Just feel numb, feel like "nothing"

Its like..Empty

Move On

1/11/2011.

I put down everything, let go of the past, and I will move on happily.

I'm not going to let myself get hurt again.

I will be the one who decide my happiness, not others, not anyone.

I will be me.

31/10

31/10/2010, I had the happiest moment during that year. We fell in love with each other.
31/10/3011, no longer the happiest moment. I'm still loving him. But he's loving her.

For any friends who see this post,
Please pretend nothing happened when you see me or talk with me,
Please don't mention anything about that, 
Please don't comfort me,
Just act like nothing has happened.
Let me put it down and get over it by myself.
I know no one can really help me but myself.
Please just leave it all for me. Alone.

Tired

Tired of pretending I'm fine,

Tired to fake all those smiles in front of people,'

Tired of persuading myself I can put it down,

Tired of crying alone every night..

Tired of everything.

2 months

Its been 2 months since we walked towards different direction.

Hope you are doing fine.

I know you do. Hope you will be happy with her.

祝你幸福

Heart Broken

I feel so heart broken these few days...

Sorry pillow, I've make you wet every night.

=(

End of sem break

Here comes the end of Y2S1 sem break.

Tomorrow onward have to start GAMBATEH for my studies again.

Peace. :)

Y2S1 Result

Result released this afternoon..

Was being informed by Shi Gin when I was having my sushi..

Good news : I've passed all the subjects

Bad news : My GPA is very low, and my CGPA has dropped.

I'll get this time lesson...

next sem..and the coming semesters,

I'll work harder...

7th Day

7th day of teeth in prison...
I can feel that my teeth is very weak..
I can even move it by the friction between upper and lower teeth...
but good news...
It starts getting closer a bit..
 a little bit... :)

Braces On.1

1 October 2011.
I've finally put the braces for my cacat teeth.
The dentist refused to cabut my teeth.
So this one have to put for 9 months.
If after 9 months not satisfy then only cabut gigi..
and put for another 2 years!!!!!
Why can't he just straight away cabut it now..=.=
save time right? =.="
Haih....
Next January...
I'm going to persuade the dentist to cabut 2 of my upper jaw teeth..
and put it for another 2 years...
>.<"

Sem break

The 3 weeks sem break started yesterday..

Really don't know what else I can do apart from sleep and eat..

I can already feel the boredom...

~.~

Business Finance

Business Finance
Guess this will be my first FAIL subject in UTAR.
I'm sorry dad and mum.

I am ?

For once in my life,
I don't know who am I.
Where do I stand in your heart?
What am I?

MacDonald

It's been a while since I last had my MCD...
Craving for it so badly these few days..
Spicy Chicken McDeluxe...
French Fries...
Fillet O Fish..
Big Mac...
*Drooling+

The Endless Tears

Every night,
I look back at those messages which you sent me last time,
Those sweet messages that I've saved.
Tears eventually fall down from my eyes.
Because I know those are only memories.
Memories that I couldn't go back.
And I always wet my pillow.
Because I can sense the further you are away from me.
Too far, too fast.
I couldn't chase.
The hope is getting smaller and smaller.

10092011

Today,

Mood swing strikes again..

I'm so unhappy now

=(

Just A Dream

Couldn't sleep well these few days...

Our memories keep on replay in my mind every night...

And it's so painful...

I dream of you yesterday..

Forgot what's the dream about..

But I was happy...

However...

When I woke up...

Tears ran out from my eyes again..

Because I realized it was Just A Dream..

September

Here comes the 1st of September...
Going to sit for my final exam from the beginning till the end of the month....
It's going to be the longest war so far...
Hoping this month will be a better month...
Life goes on... :)

I've stop crying....stop thinking about our past..

I'll move on...I hope you did the same too...

One day when you are ready to come back..

I'll always be here for u...

Shouldn't have put too much hope...

Shouldn't have dream too much..

Now I'm falling into pieces..

My heard has broken into pieces...
My dream has broken into pieces...
I've broken into pieces...
Every promises have broken into pieces..


In front of parents and you,
I'm strong enough to pretend like nothing has happened..
I'm strong enough to tell you everything will be fine...
I'm strong enough to tell you I can let go of us...
I'm strong enough to ask you work hard for what you want...
I'm strong enough to ask you go get her...


But in the end...
I'm just good in drama...putting that fake smile in front of everyone...
While inside...I'm like being stabbed by millions of knives yet..
Suffering the indescribable pain all by myself..

28082011

28/08/2011

Everything has comes to an end...

I guess it's time to pick up my pen, and ready to draw a full-stop for everything..
'Coz it seems that you are ready for that...
I have to be ready for you to say those words..
I have to...

Y2S2 Timetable

I'm going to emo for 7 weeks next semester...=(( this is way too suck!

I'm missing you badly...

Can you feel that? 

=(

Week 12

Week 12 is here...

Guess it's time for me to prepare for final...

Gambateh!

Finally all the midterms and assignments are over....
And I'll be sitting for my final exam in less than a month...
Gotta work really hard for it because I did sucks my midterm....
BUT......
For now...Let's relax for a week...
=D

31072011

What makes today so special?

Yes. It's Baskin Robbin day, 30% discount for ice-cream.

And of course,

It's our 9 months anniversary.

As usual, same as the past 9 months,

I have no BR ice-cream, with me, without you by my side on my 31st...

=(

Sleepless nights

Having difficulties to fall asleep at night recently....

No doubt insomnia has came back to me...

Stress?? Mood Swing?? Weather??

I got no idea why...

RIP Ms. Baljit

My former lecturer Ms Baljit has passed away in an car accident yesterday...The news came in a shock!!!

RIP Ms. Baljit

We can never play safe in love...

and we pay very hard for it...

What to say...

That's reality...

APA Reference

This is my 3rd year in university...

I've done so many assignments...

But till now...

I still don't know how to do APA Reference...

=.="...

FAIL...

Lies

I've been telling so many lies recently...

And I shall accept any punishment which will fall on me..

PTPTN

Haih....4th week of the semester...

And I haven't receive my loan....

PTPTN...please come to me quickly...

I'm freaking poor now..@.@

Sorry for everything I've said...

I didn't mean to make u feel so..

Win Win Situation

Everyone wish for a win win situation....

But how often could it happen in our life??

What we've learn in economics...

In order to get something...we have to forgo another thing...

It depends on which one u think the opportunity cost is lower...

But have you ever wonder..

When both of the things you wanted..

They have the same opportunity cost...

Which one will you choose if you can't have both??

One leads to another

When one problem rises up....

Another problem will be discover too....

And eventually...more and more problems is coming to me....

Lighters - Eminem & Royce Da 5'9" Feat. Bruno Mars Hell: The Sequel EP T...

A very nice song to introduce you guys...enjoy! =)

Meetoto

Another night...we were dating in meetoto...lolx...

Sorry

Sorry for being a fool

Sorry for being useless

Sorry for stressing you

Sorry for making you speechless

Sorry for not listening to what you've told me to do

Sorry for making you worried about me

Sorry for lying to you

Sorry for pretending

Sorry for not telling you everything

Sorry for crapping

Sorry for everything

Sorry for keep apologizing

Sorry because I'm so afraid of losing you

Doubt

"We'll sure be friend"...

When you spoke up this 4 words...

I can feel my heart has fallen...

My so call "I'll be ready"...can never be done...

And today only I realized..

I've been trying to keep myself busy these days...

What for??

To avoid myself from thinking about what is going to happen too frequent..

Am I doing this to try to let go of you...

Or I'm just trying to run away from the reality??

I'm doubt...

7 months

31052011...Our 7 months anniversary..I don't know how many 7 months we still can hang on...maybe less than that...but we are trying our best... =) Love you

Dream? That's The Best Gift I've Ever Had

I thought I've found my Prince Charming..and I thought I'm your Cinderella...

Everyday I was dreaming everything about us...our future...how am I going to spend my life with you

And everytime I dream, I smile =)

As I always said...reality is cruel..

Dream is still dream...

As human kind...we have limit ability to fulfill everything we wanted..

And being together with you..might be just one of it...

It's true..I've found my Prince Charming...

But I ain't your Cinderella...

What I've dream before has fallen into pieces...

Tiny puny pieces...

I still dream of us everyday..

But I'm no longer smiling...

Because I know it's just a dream I've been chasing all the time...

I'll may be never get the chance to make it come true..

I used to asked myself very often..

Is it worth for holding on to something that I have to let go in the future...

And now I know the answer...

Yes...I'm willing..I want ...

Even though I'm gonna say goodbye to you some day...

Right now...at this moment..I'm still trying my best to cherish every moment we have...

Thank god for letting me have you in my life...

And thank you for giving me your love...

That's the best gift that god and you have given me...

Y1S3 result

My y1s3 result released yesterday...good news : all passed....bad news : my cgpa has dropped..unable to push my pointer up to 3.0...haih...what to say...let's work harder for the coming semester...by the way...I'm officially a degree year 2 student... =)...2 more years to go...Gambateh!!

男人.女人

My current favorite Chinese song... ;) enjoy...

Lost

Sometimes...

The more you know about something...

The more you are unsure...unsure what is real, what is fake...

Now...I know more...and I'm blurred...

Everything is sort of unclear...

I merely couldn't differentiate the truth and the lies...

I feel so lost...

Feel like standing in the middle of jungle...

Don't know where to go..where can I go...where will I go...

Hoping someday I can fly above the jungle...and see everything beneath me ...

I hope love will find a way for me...

The Hardest Thing To Do...

Today I realized...

The hardest to do..

Is not my exam's question...

Is not how to take care of a baby...

Is not how to cook something....

It is waiting for something that will never come true..

It is watching how far we are further from each other day by day...

It is how to let go everything of us...

It is how to let go of you..

Oopss......Here comes my 2 weeks semester break....Going back home after few hours ...bobee bobee I am able to pass my final...T.T....


Happy Holiday !! =)

Tears that'll never dry....

Now only I realize...

I'm crying every single day since I know we'll have to end up some days...

Somehow I'm wishing there's miracle...

That I can get back what I'm losing...

And sometimes...I feel so tired of chasing behind....

Yet...I'm still chasing....

It's getting further from me....

And I'm busy chasing while picking every pieces of my heart which had broken into pieces..

I'm so afraid of that day when I have to, I must let go of it...

I thought I'm ready...

But I'm not...

=(

Heartache

As time passes....

Second by second...day by day...

I can feel I'm losing u a bit a time...

Should have expected this will happen...

And I should be ready for it long time ago...

I should have trying to let go of you...

I'm trying...

But the process....

Is causing my heart freaking painful....

I feel like its broken into pieces...

And I'm trying so hard to pick it up and bring it back together...

It's so painful

I've told you before....

If it you have to choose between me and your family...

You must always choose your family....

Because you only can have each of them in your whole life...

So I won't be angry if you have make your decision...

Whether it's your family or me...

I'll always support what you have chosen...what you believe is the best for you...

Obviously...I can really see what's the best for you..and your future...

And I always want the best for you...

My very 1st Domino Pizza

Lunch Time

 

 

 

5 pax meal for 4 of us...=P

 

 

Had my lunch with Shan May, Kar Sin and Wei Kian today....went to Ipoh Domino Pizza...This was my very first time dine in there...=) it's definitely much more delicious than Pizza Hut!!

Just finished my QT II test....hope I am able to pass...2 subjects down for this week..3 more to go for next week....GAMBATEH!!

He just left yesterday but I'm missing him already....=)

It's been a week I didn't update my blog...so...here am I again =)

I'm having study week now...going to sit for final next week....1st paper will be English for Business... all the best for me...and everyone who is going to sit for final too...

Oh yea..I've gained weight...=.=...feel stress because of the coming exam...so keep on eating snacks.. hope I will be able to slim down after exam...

Semester break?? Yea..can't wait for it...planning to have a long trip with him...but semester break is too short...hope mum and dad will approve my request for this long trip...and...probably gonna meet his mum too....hope everything goes smooth...bobee bobee...

And he is coming to Kampar this Friday (Saturday midnight to be exactly)....going to bring his cousins to visit UTAR....no doubt...always come when during my hectic period.. that's why I'm burning midnight oil recently...so that I can have more time to accompany him when he's here....He's leaving Sunday...fast right?? =( I think so too..but since I'm going to sit for exam too....I guess it's good for him not to stay too long too...'cause the only thing he can to is go A-station and face the monitor for whole day....if not he will be bored till death...xD

I had my Sushi Bonanza today....with wintermelon karsin, garfield gary, burger maymay, and pattern ngor....Stomach almost exploded....but yet...satisfied because this round's sushi is better than the last Bonanza season...at least we were still able to eat baby octopus, Unagi etc...

Hmm..I guess that's all for the updates...gotta continue my revision now....will be back as soon as possible.. =) stay tuned....

有的时候，我觉得我很蠢，一直把自己的热脸贴到人家的冷屁股上。。

After few days internet connection's problem....

Finally I'm able to online again...

Please don't disconnect again...

Don't take away one of the only two entertainments I got in Kampar....

@.@

Pray

I know I seldom pray..and the only time I pray is when I'm desperate..

And yes..I am desperate now....

I hope everything goes well...

So that I am able to meet him for this coming semester break...

and so that he can start all over again after all this tragic..

Please....make him stronger....make us stronger...

Please let us overcome all these obstacles....

It's time to study!!!

Study if you don't want to FAIL!!

Study if you aim for a better grade!!

Study if you wanna enter degree Year 2 next month!!!

Study if you don't want to make your family disappointed!!

TAN CHOR YING!!! IT'S TIME TO STUDY!!!!!

I'm having flu...

I'm having sore throat...

My skin is allergic...

My face is red and full of radicals...

My midterms scored bad....

My life is SUCK to the MAX now....>.<"

Damn....

I'm back to Kampar =( The weather is boiling me!! so FREAKING hot!! arrgghh.....I wanna go home.... =(

I'm home =)

After 2 months away from my lovely home...I'm finally back..gonna spend 5 days here...take a good rest...recharge myself...and go back Kampar...work hard for my final exam ( my midterms' scores real sucks).... 

P/S : I miss him so much..although he only left Kampar the day before yesterday..hope we can meet each other soon...I love you...Gambateh in your work.. =)

Waiting babe coming back from Penang... =)..I miss him.... <3

=)

Waiting for someone's arrival...He'll reach in 3.5 hours.....wish him have a safe journey.... <3

I don't know is it I'm starting to feel sad for my macroeconomics test 1..or I'm just being too stress for the coming tests...or I can't stand being nagged by my parents on my studies... I just wet my face with tears... =(

Sorry Dad & Mum =(

I got my macroeconomics test 1 result today... I've failed it...I only got 24/50..... not even half of the total marks... Sorry for disappointing both of u...I'm gonna work hard for my next tests for all the subject to ensure that I pass my year 1 degree....I promise I won't fail any of it...

8/3

What makes today so special??? It's my hubby's birthday!!!! I love you....muacks

Flu Attack!!

Being attacked by flu these few days....I think I sneeze more than 10 times in a minutes..and my nose is so pain due to over rubbing of it...=.=....I don't want to fall sick at this very hectic moment...duhhhhh!!!

Just done my law and QT2 tests today.....nothing much to say about it....it's not as difficult as imagined..not as easy as imagined as well...gotta work harder for the coming tests...definitely it will be much more difficult...

I've gained lots of weight..It's time to KEEP FIT!! First thing to do is have my meal regularly and eat less carbohydrates and fats...exercise??? Yea....will jog if I'm hardworking enough...lolx...

This coming week 8 got no midterms.....but..not going back hometown since I have to attend soft skill talk on the weekend....and assignments' due date fall on this week as well...so gotta have 'Discussion Marathon' tomorrow onwards....

=( I miss my babe so much....hope we can meet each other soon....hope everything goes well and he is able to come Kampar to visit me again on the mid of March... <3

Past 9 days

Another Wednesday...someone just left Kampar... =( gonna miss him so much.....he spent 9 days here...pretty much huh?? haha...gonna meet him again after 2-3 weeks....because he has to fetch Dato's Phua parents here...

9 days.....spent most of our times at cyber cafe for sure...since he didn't bring his lappie here...and he got nothing to do when I go to campus....and my lappie is being 'occupied' by him most of the time...=.=...that's why I seldom update my Facebook throughout the last week....

I think I successfully gain weight throughout the past week when he was here.....=.=...eaten so much everyday.... so does he.....let's hope his BMI not going to increase again...ahahah

Went to Ipoh with him and few friends last Saturday....watched I Am Number Four....hmm....that movie not bad loo...waiting for the next episode.....

And never forget to say thank you to him and Leon Phua for the delicious dinner loo...we spent the whole afternoon buying those ingredients and both of them spent the whole evening cooking for all of us... =)

I've taken lots of his pictures...hahaa....'spying pictures'...haha...card reader got problem...unable to upload here..so just keep it for myself...wakakka

He brought a fan here...=.="....yea....his turbo fan....keep on complaining Kampar very hot...and keep on complaining that I don't want to install air-conditioner....=.=".....bla bla bla...not going to install it.. =P...

Still got lots to update..but I am soooo lazy to type.....this Saturday got 2 tests loo..god bless me..I'm not ready for that... =.="...bye~

Chris Medina - What Are Words

Currently addicted to this song...so touching... =)....never leave your love one no matter what happened...

Macroeconomics T_T

Macroeconomics test 1 is just over.....T_T...what to say?? MANY MISTAKES.....I think most of my calculation is wrong...hopefully theory part is able to help me to pull up my marks.... =(

Updates

Sorry for the late updates....I've been very busy recently..and will still be busy for the coming 5 weeks....

Going to sit for my Macroeconomics Test 1 this Saturday....2 chapters...hope I will be able to do well in this paper as the second test will be much more tougher...and I've skipped 2 of the lecture class due to the stupid alarm...=.=

I'm currently killing by law...the toughest subject for this semester (for me)....so many cases and statutes need to be memorize...I wonder how am I going to memorize all of it for the final exam since I am unable to memorize all the 4 chapters' cases for my midterm...which will be held on next Saturday..T_T...DAMN IT!! I really don't want to repeat for this subject (and other subjects as well) !!

It's already week 6...and my assignments..none of it has been started...English for Business -- haven't get the article from my group mate....Business Accounting -- will have a discussion during this Thursday... Corporate and Business Law -- discussion on next Sunday....god bless us..we have to finish the assignments within these 2 weeks because the due date is on week 8....T_T...tension to the max!!!

5 weeks...I have to stay alive within these 5 weeks...after that I shall be free (only for a month)..then gonna sit for my final exam..if everything goes well...able to pass all the subjects...then this June I'll be a Year 2 undergraduate student!! =) ..all the best to me..as well as my friends...

And of course..not to forget to congrats my Form 6 buddies who scored very well for their STPM.... great to see them able to obtain such a good result after they worked so hard for it....no pain no gain!!! It's worth...

It's almost 2am...I should be on bed this time since I'm having 8am class tomorrow.... However... due to someone's 大驾光临..I have to wait until 3am only can go to bed ...=P....and I'm waiting patiently for his presence...lolx...

I think that's all for the updates..no photos as I've uploaded almost all of it on Facebook..and I'm lazy to re-upload here since the internet connection is pretty lag..and the photos can be viewed on Facebook...so no point of doing double job....hiak hiak hiak..=P

Good Night~ will be back when I'm free... xD

It's been a while we didn't meet each other.... 

And we will be meeting each other lesser and lesser in the future....

But my heart will be with you anytime and anywhere...

So do you....

I Love you.. =)

God bless Johor's citizens...

Wish the flood can be over soon....

Please stop raining....

Stop suffering the poor victims...

It's always hard to say goodbye... =( ...I'm gonna miss you so much...

Another sunny noon......hiding inside my room...viewing facebook and printing notes....grrhhh....Monday is coming real soon..which is tomorrow....have to attend super early and boring class...and of course...the solo tutorial...=(...I still know nobody so far..... 

By the way..I'm moving to 1317 this Thursday...bigger room..and warmer..=.=...and higher...=.=....then gonna go back to my lovely hometown after I move...thinking to skip the next whole week (even though some of the classes are cancelled...but there are still cruel lecturer who wanted to teach next week )....xD

After CNY I'll be super duper busy...assignments, presentations and midterm should be able to kill me this semester.....haih......life....

Our Future

I love to listen to you when you are talking about our future...Let's work it out... =)

 

 

 

1st Day of Y1S3

Today is the very 1st day of Y1S3....1st class : English for Business lecture...I've successfully fell asleep throughout the whole class...the moment I woke up and look at the slide..It's already written : End of Lecture 1... xD....The class was too boring....I'm not the only one fishing...

My 2nd class : Corporate and Business Law...I couldn't understand what was the lecturer talking about... so I was dreaming and looking around to spot who is sleeping....and kept looking at my watch ( wishing time pass fast )...

My 3rd class : English for Business tutorial....I'm solo for this class...T.T....I know nobody there... 

That's all for today...sleeping and dreaming in the class...I guess I'll be doing the same thing for the next 13 weeks....=.=..

Results Out!!!

Result is out!!! hmm....got a B- for Marketing, B+ for English and pass for PM...although it's not excellent..but then at least to pass all loo...^o^

Thank you everyone for taking care of me when I was very sick during exam season....=)..you guys are the best ever...

Gonna work harder next semester...I have to get a better grade!!! Gambateh!!!

Today is the last day for me to stay at home loo...(for this semester break)...going to Penang this Wednesday(as I've mentioned many times)....can't wait for this trip....I remember the last time I went there was more than a year ago....I had my birthday celebration there with Ai Li and her friends....xD....I wanna have a night-walking at the beach if i get the chance...hehee....

What to say...I'm gonna be spotlight for the 2 hours plus journey...since only 3 of us are going....xD... so what??? I don't mind...lalala...already get used to it...xD

Result is going to release this within this week...I'm super scare and nervous....let's hope I got all passed... especially for my Marketing..=.=...

I've lost a few kilos few weeks ago...before I came back to hometown due to the fever....HOWEVER... congratulation to me...I've successfully gained back what I've lost..probably more..=.=...

That's all for the updates...hehe....

Another numb numb day....

Starting to pack my stuffs...going back to Kampar the day after tomorrow...

And going to Penang on Wednesday...

Hope this will be a trip for me to wash those bad memories away...

Lots of family complication these days....

Sometimes I really wish to run away from home...

Run away from everything...

Hide myself at an unknown place...

Clear my mind... wash those bad memories away...

Insomnia is driving me crazy...

I've hidden myself under the blanket in the middle of the night and cry silently...

Writing blog is the only way for me to express my sadness...

I don't know who I can talk to...

The world has changed...my world has changed...everything is changing so fast...

I feel like I'm still being left behind alone...

I'm scare..I'm lonely...

I feel like I don't know myself anymore...

I'm trying extremely hard to find back my happiness...

But lots and lots of complications have become the obstacles for me...

I feel so pathetic....

Wearing a mask everyday in front of my friends and family...

Because I don't want to make them worry...I want to be that tough, strong and optimistic girl in front of them

I'm not a good problem solver...

But at least I can be a good clown...:)

........

I thought I can face all these tragic and complication alone...

I've been trying to convinced myself , as well as people around me that...

'Happy go Lucky'...be positive....

Well..sometimes things just ain't simple...ironic huh...

Tired of being alone..

Tired of being a clown...

I wish I can have someone to let me hold..

Someone to let me become the true me...

........

Reality is always cruel...I can't just get what I wish...

I'm still all alone...

By myself.. :(

=(

Feel so numb recently...

Got no special mood....

I don't want to know anything...

I feel like running away from the reality...

I'm falling into a dark hole..

I can't see...hard to breath ...

Someone please guide me and bring me from the dark hole...

=(

I want to be happy again...